Sat in my pants and a vest!

Its another hot morning! Last night Schez's mum took us on a mystery trip....we went to Ryll it was brilliant, we went to see London Studio's ballet tour. I really enjoyed it and couldent believe how successful and rewarding the mystery was! Nice One Carol!!

This morning I woke up screaming..I was about to get raped or killed or all of the above....long story but woke up pretty distressed, luckily it was 9:45am and everyone was out.

Tuesday night was a tough night. Once the lights were off my mind started reeling about Jack. All my thoughts were smothering me and they culminated in me bawling for hours...actually it wasnt proper 'let go' bawling as had my hand over my mouth and was as silent as possible becasue my mum was up working on the com puter. The result...I'm completely confused, about Everything: My feelings,Our situation, The future etc etc. I'm seeing him tommorow night...I'm not going back to his. Partly becasue He needs space..I dont want to cloud my Own judgment with sex and last but probably the most important I'm going down to London Saturday morning to be with my family.

This has put me on a downer...I'm going for some orange juice and a fag!